theunseendrafts:

You’ll never know the pain you’ve caused me. The nights I had laid awake with the burning thoughts wondering if this was killing you as much as it did me. I was just another number or name to place in your list, wasn’t I?

You’ll never know the amount of hours i spent feeling anxious about the thought of you, the thought of us. I spent nights wondering when it was all going to end, because that’s the thought you had embedded into my brain. You went into this wondering what would happen if we were to not workout, and it resulted in me wondering what our next roadblocks were.

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